disillusionment.

again. i've been wondering.. is it possible to be disillusioned over and over again? not sure. but i feel like i don't know anyone. in short, i feel quite upset with the fact that i'm in this world. but nvr mind. i don't want to emo lah..

i've been flipping through my phone folders and found these random lines i used to write when i had nothing to do. they are so lame. like:

Someone with pride will not fall into general stupidity, but in avoiding this, excess pride may lead him to greater stupidity.

The fate of a child is such that he is indebted, but he does not remember that he chose to be hired.

The world has 6 billion human beings, while you only have one world.

There is just so much malice in the world - mosquitoes need to feed, but they do not have to cause itch.

i'll save the rest for when i don't have anything to write.

First I came up with this line:

Life is governed by tensions and compressions, impulses and inertias.

Screw my impulses and inertias, because the latter caused me to stay in bed thinking and talking to myself for approximately half an hour, and the former made me go to my com and type this this moment. It is 4.53 am on my com’s clock. And of all nights it has to happen the night before the 9am PF lecture.

Anyway, this was how it started. I woke up at about four and came up with that line. After coming up with that line I had to find an example to follow through. the example was when you feel like you need a haircut and yet you tend to postpone. ok what kind of pathetic person will come up with such an example??

anyway.. i deleted the rest of the post that i wrote this morning, nvr mind.

so yesterday went to kampong glam for the frank ching workshop and did two sketches. the area is quite pleasant. i've never been there before this so i was quite happy with the bit of sense of adventure that gave. it was also first time sketching outdoors so it was FUN with capital letters. except that i feel like some AA person sitting by the pavement.

try Pokka's Milk Tea when you get the chance to. it's nice. not too sweet.

damn, i feel uncomfortable bordering on THREATENED. lol.

came across this line while researching on Secession style in Wien:
"To every age its art and to art its freedom."

"Der Zeit ihre Kunst, der Kunst ihre Freiheit."

that line is amazing. it was, according to wikipedia, carved above the entrance of the Secesssion building. this line honestly sounds better in english. lol. but anyway the german version is cool cos it so happens all the nouns in this line are feminine!! wow. die Zeit, die Kunst, die Freiheit. anyhow, i realise i missed out many buildings while i was on my trip. like in wien, i did go to the karlsplatz station (to change train!!) but i was only underground! can't believe myself. tsk. but anyway didn't see much of wien lah.. it was only one short (rainy) day.

i wasn't talking about myself, btw.

thanks to the frank ching workshop, i am having (possibly) the slackest week ever. \ and yesterday fabian did his homework! and we managed to revise elimination and cover substitution and some statistics. so i was in very good mood. yeah. i hope he keeps it up.

just got home. finished structures submission part 1. history essay looming ahead, due in two weeks' time.

fawesome.

sunday. and i went to school. man.. well of course that wasn't part of the plan. the plan was always to finish by saturday. lol but hm.. at least i was done pretty early. the worst part of having to go to school on weekends is that... only mcdonald's is open!! so we have to eat that. real pathetic.

of course people change. it's not an important question at all, so long as the change is not for the worse. who defines "worse"? certainly not yourself. that would've been too convenient. i think, hm.. i think, it should be the people who matter most to you. screw the rest of the world.

i think something's wrong with the blog.. not the blog per se, but ya the blog.

anyhow, i don't care. lol. hm, today accidentally met zhongshan at the sde/engin bus stop. which was really a big coincidence. btw i forgot to take photos of my book before handing in.. so ya, no pic! stupid me. i liked my work a lot man.. so i hope they'll return them after grading.

next week i'm (well we all are) going to meet prof Frank Ching. it's like meeting one of the architecture gods. lol. so it's a big deal in the department.

been reading some german blogs of 14, 15 yr olds. content quite lame especially cos i don't even know the people (so i feel like some kaypoh person), but entertaining nonetheless, and besides, oh man just because they're writing in german the posts sound so poetic! okok yes i'm biased. lol.

the best line i've come up with in months:
Life Kills.

lol. well anyhow, happy teachers' day to all. there's nothing much to update other than on work. so it will get boring. after some time you'll realise that i'm having no life. so i can have nothing to blog about other than how pathetic my no-life-situation is. (which is really not that bad, actually.. it's just, yea, no life). well, the extent to which this is affecting me is evident in my vocabulary. it's getting quite shitty. lol.

the only module i'm (quite) getting is History and Theory of Modern Architecture. yap. the rest .. hm i just go through them hoping something good comes out of it. Had fun doing a Spatial and Visual Communication assignment. it was totally relaxing (almost as if i was pursuing a hobby or something). will upload a photo of this fun thing when i have time. the best part is.. i was actually "doing work"!! this is the ideal thing, man..

my biggest worries are piano and deutsch. they're.. let's say.. rolling down a freakily steep slope. i can only hope that typing on keyboard is actually some kind of finger agility exercise (fat hope). and well.. i've started a wortschatz book,but dunno how long i'll stick to it.