happy chinese new year everyone. and it turned out like this:

burnt top and looks more like a giant portuguese egg tart. but i like it leh... but seems like no one liked it other than my cousins, my bro and i. it was traumatic. lol. no next time. lol.

Jason Bourne. i'm a fan. i'm a fan of so many things, right? lol. just watched 'the bourne ultimatum', now feel like watching the others too.

anyhow.. we baked cheesecake today. that's the crust"

fate is a line of non-uniform thickness. it may fade. just like using a brush. the more you exert, the thicker the line. and when you let go, well.

anyhow, i've just received my cert for the B2 Pruefung. which went 23/25 compre, 25/25 listening compre, 21/25 written expression and 17.5/25 oral expression.er it was.. what i expected i guess, but not like a fantastic surprise. lol. but yeah, given the level of difficulty, i'm satisfied. at least now i can use this cert to work.

well we'll see how it goes.

ok the exhibition is over.. i must say it was a very interesting and rather fun experience. and all turned out well :) so ya do visit the exhibition if you're interested. it's at SIA gallery. 79 neil road. near outram park.

that place is nice man.. i feel like owning one of those shophouses. lol.

how did i get into this mess?? lol. forgive me. i think i'd better sort my thoughts out before i invite trouble. or more accurately, i should stop thinking so as to stop producing thoughts.

real tired. lol.

but anyway .. the conan file 678 is out!! but doesnt explain all.. so i'm still waiting. went sketching at raffles hotel today. didn't finish in time, left early.

danke erick. for listening to so much crap. i'll be your friend always. even if you go to antarctica. lol. i mean it. hope you go online often. not that you'll read this.. but ya i appreciate it.

lol today in the mrt i saw this small kid about four.. and his brother. and the elder brother was saying "ma.. look zixiang is doing pullups" (which was really cute). and the brother even told him "the chin must touch the bar." LOL. man.. i was indiscreetly laughing.

it's very tiring to be back in nus.

for one month i was free. shit this is going to be a very emo post. lol. i miss stc. i miss tj. miss choir where i knew what i was doing, that i was going to sit in the middle of the room and think alone. and could always talk when i feel like it. i miss tj because it's where i could be alone and people hecked me, and it doesn't matter. where being alone was a choice. i miss the scope because that's precisely all i do in the scope - be alone. i miss not having to think about where to sit in lectures because i always take the front row and yiwei will be there. of course i miss the people, who didn't think that being alone is weird or unacceptable, who didn't hate me for that, like the class girls and the choir girls. who tried to understand me even though they knew i was difficult. i miss having people around who are at least a little like me, like yiwei or zhikai. because it seems to me the people in school now doesn't have that patience. and no one would understand this unless we're alike in some ways, and i meet no like souls.

all despite knowing that it's my fault. that i've become more and more difficult since primary school. it's shameful. and very selfish of me to even wish that people understand. but may i at least hope that the uni doesn't force people to work in convoluted ways that involve many groups?? lol.

i'm tired of trying. these days, i want to just heck and sit back. just see what happens.

but most of all, i miss my old self who could still be open to people. who still took risks and chances. who didn't retreat to the safety of being alone. who was able to appreciate unlike souls and wasn't always looking for like souls. who wasn't so damned bloody moody and emo.

fabian was very enthusiastic today. that, at least, made me happy. and we covered all of indices. i didn't see him for a month and he grew taller by, what, ten cm? lol. man i feel real old sometimes.

man..

didn't win the bid for electrical energy: power of the new millenium, so i guess i'll be doing 4 modules this sem. wonder if that's wise.. but anyway i foresee i'll be having quite a busy life so i hope that's ok..

went to the SAM. and the entrance sticker goes:
"no experience is necessary". i was puzzled for some time.. still can't figure out what they mean. it could mean at least three things:
1. no experience required for entering the SAM
2. 'no experience' is necessary
3. all experience is unnecessary (and therefore the SAM experience is a choice)

i'm going to learn japanese! yay. one day, one day i'll be able to read the japanese version of conan. i hope that day arrives before the end of the series. lol.

internal debate over whether or not to change 'genes & society' into something more.. manageable. i can't do bio. it's out of my league.

nothing to post.

shuuichi akai. i'm a fan. damn he died. or didn't die. hope he didn't. fyi, akai's a character in Detective Conan. lol. okay i know this is lame, but he's really cool. if there's a thing i don't like about Detective Conan, it's that it's not feministic. lol.

i foresee a bad semester ahead. haiz. of all things. hope i get all the modules i want. at least that.

missing the dogs. shit.

Happy new year. 3 days of 2009 have gone. bloody hell.

anyhow. today we went to Tuban. there's a temple by the northern coast, facing the Java Sea. it's about 2.5 - 3 hours' drive away from Surabaya. The first picture is the "tambak" along the road to Tuban [where they rear fish, prawns etc. like a fish farm] weather was good so all the photos turned out well.

and views of the coast:

bloody stupid billboard.