whoa. the last post was a blunder. what's with me.. take it easy, dude. lol. 3 chapters to go. i have, about 5 hours ba.. hm.. if i want to be optimistic i'd say it's possible.

for the first time in life i don't even know the venue and time of the exam. lol. to think i used to poke fun at people who asked me such questions. lol. but well, i don't have a bloody timetable in front of me mah.. besides, i'm going to find out from the website now. such an inconvenient system.

today wasn't very productive. was thinking too much.

ooh.. BTW. i finished my second perusal of 'Heart of Darkness'!! finally, you'd say. i feel the same way. but guess what? i think i need a third one. lol. hold on there, i'm getting it. but i didn't. not yet. i got confused towards the end of the story. maybe because he wanted to confuse me (or anyone not serious enough in reading it), or because i was distracted by the bloody exams. nevertheless, it was a pleasant read this time. i've turned to the introduction in the hope that it will shed some light on the novella. havent' finished the introduction. but ya i don't mind reading a third time (not now). i'm thinking.. i think i should go re-read many of the books on my shelves. i think i read some of them rather pre-maturely, so i couldn't fully grasp them then. (maybe still won't fully grasp them now. maybe never. it depends on your experiences) because recently people have been telling me how they liked certain books and i said "hm... i read that a few years back and i didn't really like it." for example, Tony Parsons' 'Man and Boy'.

anyway. i'm starting on 'A Vindication of the Rights of Woman'. i'm generally more fond of fictions, though. so not sure how this will go.

i'm done with pf!! whoo. it's a pleasant surprise to complete part 5 in 1.5 hours. ya but i didn't do it properly. i just wanted to finish it. that's my bane.

anyhow.


this song's so geil (the positive "geil"). ulf does a very nice "Bekanntschaft" with the hamburg accent. lol. well he's a hamburger, isn't he?

Ganz Anders - Udo Lindenberg feat Jan Delay

Eigentlich bin ich ganz anders,
ich komm' nur viel zu selten dazu
Du machst hier grad' mit einem Bekanntschaft,
den ich genauso wenig kenne wie du

Ich hab so viel Termine:
In der Disko, vor Gericht und bei der Bank,
da schicke ich einfach meine Vize-Egos
und das wahre ich bleibt lieber im Schrank

Ich bin gar nicht der Typ, den jeder in mir sieht,
und das werde ich euch beizeiten auch alles noch beweisen

Eigentlich bin ich ganz anders,
ich komm nur viel zu selten dazu
Du machst hier bald mit einem Bekanntschaft,
den ich genauso wenig kenne wie du

du hast bestimmt ein falsches Bild von mir,
so was wie 'n echten Kujau
es tut mir Leid, da kann ich nix dafür,
denn mein eigentliches Ich ist um Urlaub

Am Schluss, da hätte ich noch ne Frage:
Wieso packt ihr alles was ich sage
immer auf die Goldwaage?
Das finde ich voll schade….

he passed his exam. told him "you're lucky already". lol.

omg. great big shock. i feel like entering a warm cosy hole in the earth to avoid the embarrassment. i've been duped!!

today was a learning day. in AR1221 lecture, there was this very well expressed point in the Rem Koolhaas interview. it was on the blurring of boundaries between outside and inside, between specificity and indeterminacy, which results in the outdoors being as constricting as the indoors. it is a very relevant issue, i think. in a sense because it makes you feel so small, like you, the individual, is just part of a determined system.

then in GEK tutorial, i realised that this module is going to be the one that will give me the artistic direction to pursue. not the design module. not the 1221 (Ideas and Approaches to Design). not structural systems. because through all the "past thoughts" of these "past architects" i learnt so much. and yet the thoughts and the architects are timeless. and today the one that struck me was what the term "modernity" in architecture means. it is an entire paradigm shift.

something real funny from da vinci's writings:

"Men born in hot countries love the night because it makes them cool, and they hate the sunlight because it causes them to grow hot again; and for this reason they are of the colour of the night, that is black; and in the cold countries everything is the opposite."

man.. but i just realised that maybe five hundred years ago that wasn't such a ridiculous idea. in fact, it might have been a rather smart comment. i dunno.

secondly, i'm carrying on with my second perusal of 'The Heart of Darkness' and it only occurred to me now that it's actually pretty funny at some parts and i didn't see it then!! i thought it was dark dark and dark. but now i see some lightness in it. wth that sounds quite stupid. nvm.

man.. i turned the alarm clock off. so woke up way late.

anyway the thing about research is, you get to find cool stuff, (which i can now share with everyone through this blog haha):

Warhol's comments on the appeal of Coke:

What's great about this country is that America started the tradition where the richest consumers buy essentially the same things as the poorest. You can be watching TV and see Coca Cola, and you know that the President drinks Coca Cola, Liz Taylor drinks Coca Cola, and just think, you can drink Coca Cola, too. A coke is a coke and no amount of money can get you a better coke than the one the bum on the corner is drinking. All the cokes are the same and all the cokes are good. Liz Taylor knows it, the President knows it, the bum knows it, and you know it.

– The Philosophy of Andy Warhol: (From A to B and Back Again), 1975, ISBN 0-15-671720-4

that is brilliant. really.

i'm staying over in studio again today. geez so tired. but i'm happy. today we did like 4 sight reading pieces and my sight-reading has improved by leaps and bounds (i think). compared to, say, 4 years ago. lol. i'm thinking, maybe it's to do with the brain.

happiness comes from being free. that's what i think. being free from having to be in the company of people whose company you don't enjoy. being free from caring about what other people think. being free from fear (which is obviously impossible, but we can try).

Firenze has been under my possession for a week now and it's flourishing, i'd say.