i'm getting anxious. yea why? because i'm going home soon. feels like there's a deadline. it's kind of like despair.

just saw this documentary on computer game addiction on DW-TV. what do you think of it? i think it's such a waste if you spend all your life playing computer games. sure, i don't know the joys (or importance) of playing. but i understand. i have many hobbies too (like lying down and doing nothing or talking on the phone). at least i remain conscious that these are a waste of time when indulged in excessively. the problem with the computer game i guess is that people stop thinking properly. you should've seen this "symposium" of like hundreds of people playing computer in this dark room. it's a freaky scene man.. as it is, my youth is passing me by and i haven't done enough!!

the problem with people, of course, is that there's no such thing as 'enough'. there's not enough time, not enough money, not enough everything. real worried about the oral exam. i haven't practised a single bit. lol. worse still, i haven't been keeping up with current affairs. i hope i get an easy topic.

will go home this saturday. zaterdag. this is awesome (makes me want to cry):

from many many years ago. lol. i'm a fan of boyzone still. of their old songs anyway. i'm going to post many. lol. since i have the time. one of my favourites: (and now i realise that the defect in the cassette tape is not just in mine!! lol. it probably affected the entire production line in asia or something)

Boyzone_Melting pot - Boyzone

and if you're free watch the live version at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aTD2y2aKaz4
and this one from many years ago. cool. the internet is a cool place. lol. things i never got to watch or hear at the time (because they were only released in ireland or the UK and stuff.)

you know, things happen. i don't know the details so i can't say much. but ya. this is the only thing i can say: "it's ok but it's also not ok. it's not ok but it's also ok." it may not be very good english but well that's that. it's ok because all sorts of things can happen in life, some good, some bad, just take it as it goes. it's not ok because every bloody event contributes to your life and contributes to the making of you as a person. that's what i think. and what i hope is that things don't make you a bitter person, that's all.

omg this is driving me nuts!! they say curiosity kills the cat. the cat is in a coma! it's eating my brain. i know half of it was already gone last year, but still let me keep what i have left..

watch funny shows online. it gives you good mood.

weirder things happened. someone ran up to me and gave me thirty bucks.

anyway i borrowed three german books from the library to read, hopefully before the exam. got to chiong.. my classmates said "too late lah.." and i said no, i think it helps lol. 'big mistake' is nice.. but this is my favourite song from natalie imbruglia. so bloody cool. yeah i live pathetically in the past. i listen to old songs, read old books, etc.



why the sudden. argh i'm so curious, but i shouldn't think of it. this thing called hope, it scares me.

this is real cool.



Annett Louisan - Dings

gestern traf ich dings
du weißt schon – dings - den kennst du doch
von früher noch
der war auch mal ganz kurz
mit misses schlaumeier zusammen
ach, ich und namen
die war auch mal
ich glaub, das war damals im mai
mal mit dabei
in dieser kneipe hinten links
du weißt schon - dings
dingsbums

da war der wirt
der, wenn er voll war, immer sprach
wie dieser - ach
in diesem einen film
mit dem schauspieler - wie heißt der denn noch mal
ist auch egal
ach mensch, den kennst du auch
ein typ mit ganz viel narben im gesicht
nee, der wars nicht
ich mein` den andern mit den drinks
du weißt schon - dings
dingsbums

der hat auch erst gesungen
und dann sein leben so verpfuscht
ist ja auch wurscht.
das war so´n lied
im duett mit einer frau - ich komm nicht drauf
ach ich geb´s auf
mann, die hat doch auch ´n kind
ihr neuer mann ist tierisch reich
jetzt hab ich´s gleich
wo war`n wir grade, um wen gings?
ach ja um dings
dingsbums

na jedenfalls...
gestern traf ich dings
er kam so auf mich zu geschlendert
und soll ich dir was sagen?
der hat sich gar kein stück verändert

lol. looking back, i've said innumerable stupid things. i must have been a real freaky person. i only hope the world is not like me, who keeps tabs on everything. so it wouldn't remember my follies.

lol. the university is a damned annoying place. where you can't trust anyone. where everything is so bloody lame you feel like laughing and yet you feel annoyed. to hell. when you look around you see people talking or discussing, sometimes the whole scene is just so bloody stupid. i don't mean the people, i don't mean the words. maybe yes they all are part of the inanity, but i mean the scene. makes me want to puke.

am drowning in a wave of cynicism.