i know i know. dunno why it should still affect me when i already know. haha. i'm trying..
natha says slap. lol. won't make me feel better. i'm not sadistic. but ya true no need to worry about it.
being delusional is convenient. haha. suddenly feel so optimistic about everything.

and still looking forward to the end of semester!

i am constantly hungry.. i think it's the stress.. so annoying.

stupid autocad gave me a huge fright. this line can really kill you.
staying over in studio like really over i even brought clothes for the first time this semester. the horror of hall.

learning autocad. i'm so proud of myself. haha. but whether i can actually finish on time for monday's crit is another matter.

why why why. am i that delusional lol. it's a price for the prize. hahaha.. ok that was lame.

SEP application is open! si. how exciting.

i'm going to start an archi blog. our tutor keeps encouraging us to. lol. but sounds taxing. not like typing crap as i'm doing here.

if i survive through thursday, that'd be great. haven't read a single word for tomorrow's physics test. and i haven't even been attending lecture.

hm... dunno. maybe i should wait like two weeks. feels long, though.

ah jadi pingin go somewhere belajar bahasa juga..

i wish there's a way to learn architecture the way people learn language.. like roam around looking at street signs, talking to people, etc. would be fun. something ubiquitous. ok it IS ubiquitous as it is but ya.. you get the drift.

i think i'm paranoid. haha. but dude.. i'm wayy better now. now i feel a sense of calm, and to a certain extent carelessness. if you think about it, carelessness is a luxury.

looking forward :)

so touched geokhan called to discuss about my question on abstraction. i think i'm getting it a bit more and more each day. haha.

i'm tired. need a lot of sleep. my blog sounds whiney. haha.

life is effing depressing. lack of sleep is making me cranky and just damned tired the whole time. i can sleep anytime anywhere in any position.

but the worst is trying to "get it".

what do i always tell him, there's nothing impossible if you put your heart to it, will it, and work it. and yet i feel hopeless. so pathetic, not being able to live that sentence myself.

the pandan reservoir site is accursed. stress level is increasing exponentially, and is inversely proportional with sleep. Interim submission and one essay due on monday. die. haha.

on the other hand.. thank goodness both presentations went well.

our new book is 'Krabat'. i feel so out of touch with the language. can hardly express myself.