i wish upsetness can be packed into box, rolled into tube and stored in external hard drive.

nothing happened. must something actually happen to make people feel upset? no news is not always good news.

how did crit go? like that lor, bad as usual but not much worse than usual. he's trying to be encouraging and telling me that i should be more confident, i am becoming an architect. thank you. even though you are sometimes harsh and mean on me, you are the only tutor who has even bothered going out of the way to teach me and encourage me.

quite tired. if you wanted to upset me, i am upset. don't know what else to do.

i really liked marc and naoko's concrete bar. and the rope screen. wth had to do the presentation. groupwork makes me feel so upset. but anyway presentation was bad but i guess the slides were ok. so yep at least it's over.

concrete is cute,
and so are you.

we know that line was rubbish but it happens to be true.

ah i'm so happy. today i came up with a good sentence (my first in a long while).

What's the point of drawing a line? First i draw two, and they are parallel.

other than that, im not so happy haha. school's.. not going well. life's.. not going too well either. haha. sleep.. never enough. is it enough to believe?

lol odd shit.

studying plans.. i hope it works. i want to improve in design leh.. he said my design is... "idiosyncratic".. i am so sad!! haiz.

just three more weeks and i can have another holiday..

suddenly feel damned free. abit kong xu. will go on site visit today. still no concrete idea yet. i suppose it's time to just do it.

Mut. den brauche ich auch.

Committee Photoshoot. does that like summarise one hall year? Feels like a lot of burden is off my shoulder. and yet those one shots are totally unrepresentative. with a black background. now THAT is representative. all that is gone from the picture, wiped off the scene and covered with a piece of cloth. Probably won't be able to stay on the following year. But well life's like that.

Has it been worth it? wanna listen to 'Good Feeling' and eat naan.

finally finished urban assignment and finishing archicon.
another wave of environmental systems.
and design, how?

concrete is cute. despite what the rest may say.

dichotomy huh.. describes a lot of things.

oh man. my life is like a deep trench. i feel like a drop of water trying to rise up the trench. which obviously is impossible, thanks to the force of gravity. and still there are sand and gravels to impede me.

no idea entering my head. zero. shameful but true. such an exciting project and i'm going to screw it again! noooo..
and tomorrow i have to go to the place where it all started.

well i think it's getting too hot.
maybe i should occasionally wear a cap or look at the ground. that's one thing i can't do - look at the ground. or just elsewhere. anywhere but the sun.

no wonder i'm blind.