1221 essay finally done. it's sunday. which means.. the term break is over and i haven't rested! wth!! amfufu.

amanda will be back in singapore?? in a few hours' time? see you soon.

halimaw = monster. lol.

man.. this is tough. lol. when again? someday. Alles zu seiner Zeit. and even then, what now? time changes people. people change people. "The only constant is change." who said that? (checked online, i think that's by Heraclitus). i've come to the end. there's nothing to regret, there wasn't anything i would change. it wasn't my decision alone.

it's like your body. as a baby there was a first you. and then there will never be the same you again. you learn to stand, and fall. learn to bike, you fall. try to be funny and you get knocked on the head. the world changes you. the same with your life.

i don't forget. it may not matter, but still i hope you know.

i was a very happy person. lol. ya hor..

i guess this is one thing i enjoy doing: giving tuition to fabian. though sometimes it causes terrible headaches. exam in just a week plus' time.

i've registered for b2.5 exam preparation course, which means i'll be taking the b2 Pruefung this december. so exciting! i need a goal :D

okay tonight must really really finish the AR 1221 essay.

borrowed my brother's bag and came across this:


man.. how long has that bag not been cleaned? lol. but anyway, this is cool artifact! from november 2006. i think that's why everyone needs a sibling. that ticket was pretty. i miss those days. rather miss being in tjchoir. the constantly high feeling. (not true. but i remember only the good bits. there weren't many bads.)

we rocked.

managed to extract the german songs that andrew burned like two years ago, now that i have a dvd drive lol. some are pretty cool.

i lost my sense of identity. lol.

that's how i felt. so i took a pair of scissors from my brother's room, steeled myself and went to stand before the bathroom mirror, and cropped my hair. that makes me sound positively unstable, but i assure you i am more or less sane. i just have this impulse to cut my hair when i feel restless or upset. this is not the first time, so i know what i'm doing.

i'm sorry callista, i saw your NO only after i did it. i may have postponed it or something if i had seen it earlier.

this is what i think: man lives and dies alone.

these days i don't know whom to trust. your friend suddenly becomes enemy and you realise you've been thinking with your, what, nails? stupid prejudice and some of your "friends" are no friend. happened once, twice, thrice, and that's it. chances GONE. lol. of course i'm exaggerating it. that's why i write it. lol. but anyway it doesn't only happen to me..

i thank some people who have been really nice. i wish the world was like that.

i forced myself to turn on the computer so i can rip my cds into the library. desperately need songs. this com is technically empty. anyone with songs to share are welcome to send me some :D

leaving some cds unripped though. there's something about playing cds in your discman, forcing yourself to sit (or stand) through the ones you don't like, and having to repeat twelve, thirteen songs three, four times a day. the sacrifice you have to go through to access the good bits.

break is halfway over and still doing work. lol.

i love this photo.


must save money so i can go back there and visit my "Land of Wonder". very pleasant memories indeed. to me it was like a dream. like i hadn't seen enough and suddenly i was overwhelmed by wonder. everything was awesome. and then the people i met were great. and it was different from like a holiday, because i was living there like a normal life, cooking, washing, watching football, doing grocery, walking around the park.

oh man...

anw this is funny: "The New Facebook is now the only Facebook." lol.