i just really hate people in general. i prefer plants and animals. i even hate myself. more specifically, i hate my current self, i want to go back say three or four years in time, ok maybe even further back. i find the world so sickening and difficult to live in.

but well yeah it's a life i have to live, and well there are some nice and reasonable people, just that there are so few..

"Fast alles hat sich geändert, und fast alles ist sich gleichgeblieben."- Als Ich Ein Kleiner Junge War

Wenn ich Erich Kästner lese, verstehe ich eigentlich warum ich die deutsche Sprache liebe.

I had a nightmare. A really depressing nightmare. Actually i´ve had 2 this week. On two separate subjects but both as depressing.

And it's rag day tomorrow. I wish every participant good luck.

went on a trip to jakarta and bandung. i had interesting days.. so ya pretty happy about it, although i would have preferred a friendlier weather (less rain and more sunlight).

a new semester starting soon. no one would understand how i feel.

anyway. great song from my childhood.

张雨生 - 是否真的爱我



是否真的爱我？别对我沉默，这月色美丽的夜晚，你在想什么？
是否真的爱我？别对我冷漠，你心里有什么样的话，尽管对我说！
还记得曾经编织的梦想，也许你早遗忘，绚烂的爱情在多年以后，也许渐渐变得平淡。

你可知不是我不了解爱情微妙难捉摸，不是我不怀疑眩外的爱情会迷惑。总是那肩并肩走过的岁月刻画在心头，切切的叮咛着我与你长相厮守！

apparently i've been promoted, such that i can now be addressed with a cute word by a totally uncute person.

been having practices with the group after work, i hardly have time/energy to help out with rag. or watch football. anyway i've been watching football on rcti via some online streaming and the screen is so freakin small it's very difficult to concentrate and enjoy the game.

reading this book 'Indonesia Dalem Api dan Bara'. Good book, i'd recommend this to all fellow indonesians.

i'm sorry, i didn't mean the uncute part.

we had first full dress rehearsal today. i'm really glad our group costume turned out well. we sang not horribly, although vast improvement to be made. concert is in 2 weeks' time. it's awful quick. but it will be nice, so please turn up! reso practices are quite fun and i've made a few friends.

started work as well. it's DARNED boring. but today i felt quite helpful. i answered about 7 inquiries. lol. did half of my german homework and spent the rest of the time distracted with all the conversations going around me. and my supervisor kept asking me to turn on the radio when i DO NOT want the radio (i was trying to concentrate on my homework!) i quite like my work actually. nice place.

lady gaga medley turned out really nice even though i'm not a fan of lady gaga. 'Beyond the Sea', 'This i Promise You' and 'Qian Li zhi wai' were also nice. those are some of the songs from our repertoire.

Anyway, fyi concert details:

Vocal Obsession IV
University Cultural Centre Theatre, NUS
26th June (Saturday) 7:30 pm
$20

do come!

Just the Way You Are. awesome song by Billy Joel. i'm on a roll. lol.




Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.