okok finally a chance to get a grip on life and reorganise my thoughts. that means cutting studio work some slack for about 24 hours. but it's ok i'll try catch up in a while.

resolutions:
1. i'll read those bloody books that are still in the queue. 4 urgent ones.
2. i'll read module readings in advance. (ok this is tough)
3. i'll be more rigorous in design. i'm feeling inspired by some studiomates.
4. i'll read any random interesting things in the national library every week or at least once every two weeks.
5. i'll start taking note of my income and expenses again.

feeling abit less displaced after reading the timetable.

suddenly got reminded of this song i really liked in sec4 or so. i'll try an approximate translation cos the lyrics are quite nice.

Porzellan - Farin Urlaub

Das Glück ist immer da, wo du nicht bist  
Happiness is never where you are
Du willst immer das, was du nicht kriegst 
You always wish for what you cannot get
Und du beklagst dich: Es ist nicht fair   
and you complain life isn't fair

Schön ist nur das, was du verpasst         
Only things you've missed are beautiful
Du brauchst irgendwas, was du nicht hast   
You need the things you don't have
Du bist nie zufrieden, du willst immer mehr
Never satisfied, you always want more.

Du wärst gern wie sie, du wärst gern wie er  
You'd rather be like her, or like him
Du wärst gern jemand anders, hauptsache, irgendwer
be like anyone else, just anyone
Glück gibt es überall, vielleicht auch hier - 
Happiness is everywhere, perhaps here, too.
Es liegt an dir...                            
it lies in you.

Du siehst die anderen und dich packt die Wut: 
You look at the rest and you wonder
Warum geht es dir schlecht und denen gut?     
Why does it go well for them, and not for you
Du fühlst dich einsam, du fühlst dich leer    
you feel lonely, you feel empty.

Du gehst an so vielen Dingen achtlos vorbei    
you go by many things mindlessly
Für immer Sklave der Angst, nie wirklich frei  
always a slave to fear, never really free
Mach dir das Leben doch nicht so schwer        
don't make your life so difficult (ok this stanza i'm not sure)

Du wärst gern wie sie, du wärst gern wie er
Du wärst gern jemand anders, hauptsache, irgendwer
Glück gibt es überall, bestimmt auch hier -      
Happiness is everywhere, here, too, for sure.
Es liegt an dir...                               
it lies in you.

Vielleicht wirst du's begreifen - irgendwann    
Maybe one day you'll see
Und wenns so weit ist, bitte denk daran         
and then think about it:
Glück ist zerbrechlich, fass es vorsichtig an - 
Happiness is fragile, hold it with care
Wie Porzellan!                                  
like porcelain.

weird days. it's sad.

two more weeks. and then school will start. back to the ridiculous studio days. dreading the studio list. lol.

the new semester's timetable is out!!! this is real depressing.

i just found somebody else who looks like garfield. haha.
i like garfield. so it's okay.

i foresee that my sundays end here. how sad. but i'm glad this year's gss went well. better than the past three years or so. haha. retail therapy works when you spend your entire week working and get a day out at the end. at least i think i haven't wasted my money on the things i buy. i don't regret buying them. and anyway for the next one month i'm not going to be out, so that should cut my expenses down a bit.

transformers2 is lame. with unnecessary scenes and plot deviations.

hm.. i must do that bloody watercolour.

what was that supposed to mean, man.. yesterday two people were talking behind my back. literally. i was determined not to hear. maybe that's a bad choice.

this is ridiculous. was going to watch a video on DW-TV. the first image shown was a woman with dreadlocks playing guitar and singing. paused it to buffer and i thought i'd check out dreadlocks in the meantime. which led to reading on the Rastafari movement. and it's now 11.24 and i've to go down start work. and i haven't watched the video at all!!!!