i haven't been blogging much. because truly, nothing is going on. no luck at job hunting so far. results out tmr gosh. holiday fun and holiday blues. and most importantly holiday sleep. still neglecting to do portfolio.

oh how i wish to be in germany again. i love the dryness of the air, the walking, the flowers, the market, the football watching, the houses, the bread. the people speaking german all around you.

world cup 2010 is coming. looking forward to it :D

this is ridiculous. i haven't finished moving and my arms hurt. made countless trips between d602 and e303 starting from 11 am. left with clothes and a few miscellaneous items. very lazy and unmotivated now. contemplating sleeping in the old room tonight, but no bedsheet lol.

i'm damned sad leh.. usually i don't feel sad at all when i'm alone in hall but today it's been really depressing! i think it's not the fact that i'm alone, it's the impact of the realisation that it's going to be like this next year. over the semester since i knew that those friends i usually hang out with are going on sep i've been thinking haiz next sem will be quite sad. but i think today comes the epiphany. i kept using the linkway and everytime i walked past natha's room i feel really sad that he's not coming back. i make it sound like he died lol. but ya zhao also not staying next year. no one to eat supper with, no one to whine to or irritate, no one to watch movies with, no one to go to school with. if it's even possible i'm going to eat even less hall dinners lol.

oh well. life's like that huh? haha.

The awesomest song of the semester.

Echt - Du trägst keine Liebe in dir

du ziehst nervös an deiner Zigarette,
du hast das Rauchen wieder angefangen.
Du fragst mich nach meinem Befinden,
wie du siehst ist es mir gut ergangen.
Du schweigst und schlägst die Augen nieder,
mit deinem neuen Freund ist es schon vorbei.
Es scheint das passiert dir immer wieder,
kannst nie lange bei jemandem sein.

Du bist immer noch verdammt hübsch anzuschauen,
doch ich würde nicht all zu lange darauf bauen.

Denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir,
nicht für mich und für irgendwen,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir,
dir nachzutrauern macht keinen Sinn mehr,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir.
dich zu vergessen war nicht sehr schwer,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir.

Deine Augen seh'n verzweifelt,
dein Lachen klingt so aufgesetzt.
Bild ich's mir ein oder hab ich dich etwa,
nach so langer Zeit verletzt?
Ich habe dich noch nie so gesehen.
Du fragst mich, ob wir uns wiedersehen?
Doch es gibt kein Zurück mehr,
du brauchst mich nicht mehr.

Du bist immer noch verdammt hübsch anzuschauen,
doch ich würde nicht all zu lange darauf bauen.

Denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir,
nicht für mich und für irgendwen,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir,
dir nachzutrauern macht keinen Sinn mehr,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir,
dich zu vergessen war nicht sehr schwer,
denn du trägst keine Liebe in dir.

one of the dryers was spoilt and the rest were used so today i did a full hang-dry. first time in hall.
schönen Freitag - jetzt null Grad aber wird sicher noch ändern.
i don't know if i still believe it.

i wish upsetness can be packed into box, rolled into tube and stored in external hard drive.

nothing happened. must something actually happen to make people feel upset? no news is not always good news.

how did crit go? like that lor, bad as usual but not much worse than usual. he's trying to be encouraging and telling me that i should be more confident, i am becoming an architect. thank you. even though you are sometimes harsh and mean on me, you are the only tutor who has even bothered going out of the way to teach me and encourage me.

quite tired. if you wanted to upset me, i am upset. don't know what else to do.

i really liked marc and naoko's concrete bar. and the rope screen. wth had to do the presentation. groupwork makes me feel so upset. but anyway presentation was bad but i guess the slides were ok. so yep at least it's over.

concrete is cute,
and so are you.

we know that line was rubbish but it happens to be true.

ah i'm so happy. today i came up with a good sentence (my first in a long while).

What's the point of drawing a line? First i draw two, and they are parallel.

other than that, im not so happy haha. school's.. not going well. life's.. not going too well either. haha. sleep.. never enough. is it enough to believe?